Life is a set of maybes, and Love is a tool.

I’ve come to the conclusion that there are no set rules in life. You do what you have to do to survive. If that means running away from the love of your life to preserve your sanity, you do it. If it means breaking someone’s heart so yours doesn’t break; do it. Life is complicated,…

Running optional.

We think of the future as something far away and the past like the last minute we lived. And in this we forget that life is now, in this moment, in the feelings we have right now. Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand…

Indestructible.

Indestructible. I thought I was indestructible, then I broke. Contrary to my belief that breaking must be so painful, I realised that it is actually a relief. There is so much riding on something so small that when the dam breaks, when the pressure is no longer on your little shoulders, it feels cathartic. Then…

The Adventures of Saee in Northern Thailand – 1

In November of 2013, I travelled from the southern hemisphere to the beautiful northern hills of Thailand. It was there that I stayed for 4 months, working on Elephant Conservation, travelling and hitchhiking solo across the almost-unexplored green hills of Thailand. Living and working alongside a harlequin band of people from across the globe, I…

Separation anxiety and panic attacks, along with all the rest…

Seriously I’m losing my mind with the freaking out..  I’m not scared to move.. I’m actually looking forward to working and moving in with my flatmates.. I’m not sure wtf is wrong with my brain in general.. I have wasted the last 3-4 days just over thinking or losing it.. not sure which is true. …

Endless…

I feel stuck. The gap is too small to fly out of. Caged… When will I be able to breakfree? Is escape really a thing? Why can’t I see a way out? I can’t see the cage I’m in either. View this post on Instagram I understand that you believe that she was the love of…

Melting point…

There’s something about summer… It makes me rethink my life every year.  It’s almost like the summer melts down my walls that I keep my emotions bundled behind. The emotions that make me question myself, question if anything that I’m doing is making sense.  If I’m even headed anywhere or am I drifting with the…

The Anthroposcene.. how we can save our planet.

You can never know anyone completely, no matter how long you have known the person, or how much you have tried to analyse them. To know another human being wholly, is beyond reason and comprehension. We have many layers, as many layers as you can peel off. A human being is a complex social animal,…

Hangovers…

Hangovers are of all types. I’m sure all of us have had a travel hangover at least once in our lives. And it’s not just the posts or the photos but the feeling of that sun beating down on your face, that first time you experienced something amazing, then realised that amazing experiences were going…

Nostalgia? Not really…

Facebook reminded me yesterday, that one year ago I was in the same geographic place.Maybe this is a sign of being old/mature but I am not the same human being I was then, and I don’t feel nostalgic about her either… I think I have realised that each person who comes into your life gives…

Healing.

  The reason why you should give time a chance… So basically, I’m not going to sit here and tell you that “time heals all wounds ” — because that’s nonsense. Sure, time heals many wounds. Most wounds even, but not all wounds. Some wounds stand the test of time better than any of the…