The Adventures of Saee in Northern Thailand – 1

In November of 2013, I travelled from the southern hemisphere to the beautiful northern hills of Thailand. It was there that I stayed for 4 months, working on Elephant Conservation, travelling and hitchhiking solo across the almost-unexplored green hills of Thailand. Living and working alongside a harlequin band of people from across the globe, I…

Separation anxiety and panic attacks, along with all the rest…

Seriously I’m losing my mind with the freaking out..  I’m not scared to move.. I’m actually looking forward to working and moving in with my flatmates.. I’m not sure wtf is wrong with my brain in general.. I have wasted the last 3-4 days just over thinking or losing it.. not sure which is true. …

Endless…

I feel stuck.┬áThe gap is too small to fly out of. Caged… When will I be able to breakfree? Is escape really a thing? Why can’t I see a way out? I can’t see the cage I’m in either. I understand that you believe that she was the love of your life, and that you…

Melting point…

There’s something about summer… It makes me rethink my life every year.  It’s almost like the summer melts down my walls that I keep my emotions bundled behind. The emotions that make me question myself, question if anything that I’m doing is making sense.  If I’m even headed anywhere or am I drifting with the…

The Anthroposcene.. how we can save our planet.

You can never know anyone completely, no matter how long you have known the person, or how much you have tried to analyse them. To know another human being wholly, is beyond reason and comprehension. We have many layers, as many layers as you can peel off. A human being is a complex social animal,…

Hangovers…

Hangovers are of all types. I’m sure all of us have had a travel hangover at least once in our lives. And it’s not just the posts or the photos but the feeling of that sun beating down on your face, that first time you experienced something amazing, then realised that amazing experiences were going…

Nostalgia? Not really…

Facebook reminded me yesterday, that one year ago I was in the same geographic place.Maybe this is a sign of being old/mature but I am not the same human being I was then, and I don’t feel nostalgic about her either… I think I have realised that each person who comes into your life gives…

Healing.

The reason why you should give time a chance…

#blue

Isn’t it weird that people think blue stands for sadness? On a blue sunny day, sitting on a ferry across an endless blue river, under a sapphire blue sky; Blue is the epitome of calm, blue is endless, blue is happiness. Blue is my life.

Falling in love

People accuse me of falling in love easily. It just means that I’m able to see the beauty in most of the people who cross paths with me and I appreciate it for what it is and also for what it isn’t. Love is imperfect. Falling for someone’s flaws is just as necessary as falling…

A Fortunate Happenstance.

I spend most of my time wondering if I should be somewhere else. So I have learned to shape the words thank you with my first breath each morning, my last breath every night. When the last breath comes, at least I will know I was thankful for all the places I was so sure…